March 10th, 2006

Missed Connection with My Life

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I missed the connection with the life I wanted and ended up, due to my own choosing, with a life I don’t recognize. I made bad choices and bad decisions and there’s no one to blame but myself. Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we make a decision, realize it’s a mistake then box ourselves in with no good way out? I am half in love and half in hate. From what I read here and in the CE area, there are a lot of other people just like me. Even though my husband can be a jerk, insensitive, and inattentive, he still does not deserve for me to cheat on him. He’s not a mean or cruel person. No one can do anything to “earn” being cheated on, regardless. I cannot rationalize myself into thinking, “if he can’t or won’t give me what I want, no matter how often I tell him of my needs, then I will find it where I can.”